Growing in our hearts

On Thursday, June 19, 2014, I received a text that would change our lives forever. At 6:46am, my sweet friend and ministry companion, sent me a message that a friend of a friend knew of an adoption opportunity. Backing up a few months, Ben and I had seen a fertility doctor in Texarkana, TX in the hopes of growing our family of 3 to 4. After 2 months, we got a positive pregnancy test…we were elated! We planned names and started dreaming. My parents and sister were in town and they started to buy things like a baby book and gender neutral clothes! It was all we could talk about. A few days later, I decided to take another test-it was negative. After research and phone calls to the doctor, we found out that the medicine I was on can give a false positive. Just like that, we were devastated. We determined not to get discouraged and try again. Because of timing issues, we had to take 2 very LOOOOONNNNGGGG months off from the doctor. During this time, we revisited adoption. For as long as we have known each other, Ben and I have both known that adoption was in our future somehow, sometime. For us, we did not feel led to an adoption agency. There is nothing wrong with agencies, but we just felt it would be a personal encounter. 

We went back and forth everyday between adoption and fertility treatments, never feeling confident about an agency. When I received the text from Kelli, I knew this was Gods answer! When Ben woke up, we started the process of calling the attorney and gathering as much information as we could. Later that same day, we found out we could try another round of fertility treatments….but the week we would need to go to the doctor, she was out of town. Normally we would be frustrated by this, but we had fervently been praying that if that is not what God had for us, to close that door…and He did! I was more than excited to hear this as it was more confirmation that we were supposed to pursue the adoption!

Within a day, we had a skype date with the birth parents…we were matched and began to intertwine our lives. On Wednesday, July 2, we got the news that our sweet baby was a GIRL!!!! I screamed and cried…we jumped up and down and hugged, and Lincoln looked at us like we were crazy! 2 weeks ago, we received ultrasound pictures and a video (2D and 3D) in the mail. Tears streamed down my face as I watched our daughter grab her toes and put her sweet hands to her face. She may not be growing in my tummy, but she is most certainly growing in our hearts!

Amelia Grace Polson is due to arrive December 30, 2014!

Please pray for us as this is a long journey with many uncertainties. One thing we do know for certain is that this is the path that God has us on.